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I agree, but I don’t.

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My mother is a brilliant woman. She is one of the most hardworking, dedicated, and inspirational women I have ever met. Growing up, she was my first female role model. She broke boundaries by being the only one amongst her sisters to complete high school and the only one to attend college. She reshaped the mold of the role of a woman in her family and forged a new path for the generations of women that came after her. …

My own kindness is the only one I need

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“If you met me between November and May, I’m sorry but you only met a shell of who I am, and she was a piece of shit” I disclaimed to my Twitter followers, most of whom I have never even met.

I throw this disclaimer out into a void of thousands of followers hoping it lands on the timelines of those that I want to see it. I hope that somehow I will feel better, now that they might know I didn’t intend to cause the hurt that I did. …

The case of Tripoli, Lebanon

The Middle East has an undeniable relationship with Coffee and its consumption, with it being ingrained in the culture in times of celebration to times of mourning. This connection to coffee has carried over to a relationship with the places that serve it as well, with coffee shops becoming the prime spaces for socialization and exhibition of class status.

In Tripoli, Lebanon, this phenomenon is augmented by the relative lack of some social lubricants such as pubs and bars due to the overall conservative nature of the city’s culture, and the abundance of other forms of social lubricants such as…

and why you shouldn’t take it personally

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Now that almost the entire world is in a state of isolation and at home 24/7, there has been a rise in tweets and passive-aggressive Instagram quotes about how this is a “time to see who truly values you”. This follows the logic that people have no reason to be “too busy” to not message back instantly because after all, everyone is free now and should have all the time in the world.

Even before we began this isolation period, I had recently noticed a particular pattern with many of my friends. I would often send a text checking in…

We are all hurting

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The world around you might often feel like it’s falling apart, or more accurately it might feel like your world is falling apart while everyone else’s is doing just fine. You go to the park for a walk to clear your head, to stop being sad or angry or emotional, while everyone else goes to just be. Right? It seems ironic, and you know that that’s not true; you know that everyone else has their own problems — yet you convince yourself that somehow you are the person that has it the worst.

We sometimes tend to hold on to…

What I learned from my mistakes

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In the Winter of 2015, I was in the middle of my third year of college when I realized that I felt confined. I was living life without much purpose or aim, and my existence centered around my college courses. I wanted to do something that would help me grow, something out of the ordinary, I wanted to get out of my box. So, as any rational person would do, I contacted a cultural exchange organization I worked with and committed to a 6-week project, and booked the next flight out to India.

My Lebanese parents were terrified. I’d never…

You might get your sanity as a consolation prize.

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“Pretend you don’t care” is the worst post-breakup advice I’ve ever received. It’s also the worst post-being-ignored-by-the-guy-I-was-kind-of-seeing advice I’ve ever received.

When a dating situation goes south, friends always come in to listen to your emotional waterfall and then tell you to pretend your feelings are a still lake, unshaken. Why can I not let him know about my steady streams of doubting myself? My pouring rain of wondering why he hasn’t texted me back? My trickling droplets of missing him?

What do we have against vulnerability? Trying to “win” a breakup springs from one of two assumptions, either the…

Horses, bikes, ADHD, anxiety, meds, and friendship

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A few years ago during our spring breaks, my childhood friends and I decided to take a girls’ trip to Turkey. We packed our bags and set off for a week away to destress, tour, and bond.

As one does during trips, we had our moments of vulnerability and opening up. One day over a late-night in our shared hotel room, I told my friends that I had recently been diagnosed with Anxiety and ADHD.

Having this diagnosis was life-changing for me, I had spent the majority of my teens wondering why I am the way I am, my college…

I swear, I didn’t mean to ghost him.

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Yesterday, sitting on my friend’s couch eating popcorn and talking about life, we had a moment of contemplative silence, followed by a question that took me off guard. “How do you accidentally hurt someone?”

She was referring to when I mentioned accidentally ghosting someone in a previous article. She said, “what does that even mean?”

I’ll tell you what it means, it means that I really liked a guy, and I liked him so much so fast that it overwhelmed me and hurt us both.

A little more than a year ago, I had just made a life-changing move to…

Opening up shouldn’t be a chore

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There’s so much comfort in knowing that you could confide in someone, that they want to support and love you and take care of you. It’s a beautiful thing to hear them say “I’m here for you”, but what’s the point of saying it if they haven’t shown you whether or not they can handle supporting you?

I’ve been struggling with mental health issues for years, and I’ve thankfully gotten to a place of comfort where I know my psyche enough to manage my anxiety and depression well most of the time. …


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